CILACAP ITU...

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Dan pelangi yang enggan datang pun berbinar
Kertas putih yang pudar tertulis seribu kata
Kan ku ungkap semua yang sedang ku rasa
Dengarkanlah kata hatiku
Bahwa ku ingin untuk tetap disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Biarkan ku disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Karna ku tak mau jauh darimu
Dunia boleh tertawa melihatku bahagia
Kembalikan tempat yang kau anggap tak biasa
Biarkanlah aku bernyanyi
Berlari berputar menari disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
karna kau disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Kaulah segalanya bagiku

aku keliling dunia
Kaulah segalanya bagikuu

senyum di Teluk Penyu
dan yang pasti cilacap itu "PENUH SENYUMAN"

I'm Full Of Hope Right Now!!!

3 days before i go to Cilacap..

i begin to accept all this reality
now.. i just can say:
THANKS GOD I CAN GATHER WITH MY FAMILY AGAIN...

i just realize that..
that a lot of people who love me so much are waiting for me over there...!
i will do my best there!
i wanna make my parents happy..
wkwkwkwk.. (I'm a good person, aren't i?)

so, i'm waiting for my brother pick me up.
i'll go at Monday, July 6th 2009

see you malang!!!!
i love you, mom, dad...

See You...

i don't know
it's hard for me..
all this complicated mechanism here make me sure that i must GET OUT from here!!!

whatever i do, it's just like i never be good enough for my family.
they always think that i must be like what they want, without give me chance to show who am i actually...!!!
SUCK!!

i will go 'there'..
cilacap maybe
maybe i will get a better family there..
a better education there..
a better future there..
and of course some new friend, who never be better than i had here!!!

but, every time i told this,
there's always the TEARS...
and i hate when i know they wept..

now i know that i never loose all my best friend.
all of them is the best in my heart.

weci
miss. bound
miss. Strezz
romo
mr. yu
mr. iis
mr. agus
mom far
jongos
nigrum
adek2 kelas 1 english club
sovy
luluk
uut
asaku!
arseka!
himpas'k!

all of them!!!

i love you..
and i hope i can stay here...
for you all...

i wish i'd stayed here..

"LEARN..."

learn...
to accept the unfairness..
to understand my friend..
to be unselfish..
to be happy together..
to appreciate what i've gotten now..

my friend said:

If you stand for a reason, be prepared to stand alone like a tree. And if you fall down on the ground, fall as a seed that grows back to fight again
ZAHID ANJUM BALOCH

Enjoy Ajah!!!

i've passed my final examination!!!!
hua hua hua... merdeka!!!!
some subject.. mmm... i hope the best!! heheh..:-)

so, tadi ujian terakhir buat kenaikan kelas ini...
habis ini udah mau kelas XI heheh..
n hari ini aku ujian langsung 6 mata pelajaran! busyett!! gilaaa!!!

habis tu, aku, miss bound, ama miss. strezz maen2.
1 beli cilok di depan skul. (ngirit booo)
2 beli jajan di cak hadi
3. beli dawet di depan kawedanan
4. makan bareng di trotoar depan kawedanan, ngemper di bawah pohon, ngeliatin mobil2 lewat, orang pacaran, ampe orang2 yang memandang kami "aneh". hehe.. emang agak aneh sih...

i enjoy banget my life here!!
today!!

n percaya gak nih uangku habis tinggal 1000 perak n tak buat k warnet posting blog ini...

klo kehabisan duit gimana yach...

ah let it flow!!
gila2an ajah.
yang penting life is never flat!! haha...

My Life Become GJ

GAK JELASSS!!!

that's what i feel now in my life.

my exam was so mess..

my love story was very complicated..
and i got someone new..
and i'm very confused..
and i miss my ex-boyfriend..

my family don't care anymore about me..

i begin feel that i loose my best friend one by one..

and i take a part of another persons problem which is actually i should not take a part on it.

and i'm walk alone now..

there's a big hole on my heart now!

Please don't BLAME me anymore!

please don't! don't blame me..
and don't make me frustration,
all the nightmare you had given to me is ENOUGH!

i know about that, i won't forget it all my life!
the effect is too hurt me so deep that i cannot heal it at all..
i just need you to let me smile, please..

and deep inside my heart, i don't wanna be blamed,
because i don't mean to do that,
but why all the people think that all this sucking fact is my fault?
why?

please don't!

and don't take me out from here!