LOST-LOOSE-and-LOSTagain

LOST (part 1)
Saturday, November 14th 2009

i watched the NIDJI's concert in eks-batalyon yard Cilacap.
i got there on 4 in the afternoon with my lovely bro. (who else?!)
So good... NIDJI HOLIC Cilacap!!!!!!!!!

We were dance and dance crazyly, and wetly,
until we realize something: My handphone was LOST!
so, i talk to my bro with my panic feeling, and he said, "relax... just take it easy..."

ok, the first thing i'm sorry was that i didn't follow my brother said.
he asked me not to went to the front of stage, but i still went there...
until i lost something from my mom that actually i should take care of it... :-(

mamaz helped me to get the new phone number and still trying to contact my old one,
but no result.
so i must let my phone go away...

LOOSE
Sunday, November 15th 2009

that was my little baby bro's birthday, but i might go to Purwokerto
joined THE QUICK QUIZ COMPETITION in STAIN campus Purwokerto
The model of the tes was TOEFL.
actually i just did what i could do there.
but i still tried, tried, and tried.
thought, thought, and thought.
and finally, me and two of my junior classmate just could hope, hope, and hope.

and we got:
Tatik Fariha XII Ak: 24th
Nima Muniru XI Ap: 59th
Rizky Septyana X Pj: 53th
Of 79 contestant of Senior High School and College among eks-karesidenan Banyumas.

the 1st, 2nd, and 3rd winner was gotten from SMAN 2 Purwokerto.
And the 4th was from UNSOED Purwokerto.
all of them would have a debate contest on semifinal with the winners from the first contest which is held in Purbalingga.

now, back to us.
this is what we called LOOSE!

our teacher, Mr. Panut said, "the most important thing is we have tried to make some achievement. Win or loose is just the effect."

ok, we are disappointed, but it make us realize about our ability did the TOEFL test.
and we would try for the next TOEIC test on the end of November.

LOST (part 2)
Still on Sunday afternoon, November 15th 2009

hang out to MORO Purwokerto.
had a fast food lunch wiht my friends,
bought tamiya for my baby's birthday,
and over on 4 in the afternoon.

took a taxi to Purwokerto terminal, and waiting the bus to Cilacap.
the fact is: REALLY SUCK! we lost the bus which went to Cilacap terminal directly.
so we might take the other of which route through Buntu.
this was the beginning of our LOST trough Purwokerto-Buntu-Cilacap

SUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!
we arrived in Buntu on 6 o'clock.

Thayank, pick me up...
i miss Cilacap...

Become stezz!!!

now i have a hard stezz. a lot of work must be done on time and maximal. actually i like become an active person, but it's really pressed me down.
1 national examination
2 quick quiz
3 accounting theory ang practice examination
4 STAN selection
God, help me....
Give me a succesfull in everything i do and everything i hope for....

CILACAP ITU...

Kapur putih yang pucat terasa penuh warna
Dan pelangi yang enggan datang pun berbinar
Kertas putih yang pudar tertulis seribu kata
Kan ku ungkap semua yang sedang ku rasa
Dengarkanlah kata hatiku
Bahwa ku ingin untuk tetap disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Biarkan ku disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Karna ku tak mau jauh darimu
Dunia boleh tertawa melihatku bahagia
Kembalikan tempat yang kau anggap tak biasa
Biarkanlah aku bernyanyi
Berlari berputar menari disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
karna kau disini
Tak perlulah aku keliling dunia
Kaulah segalanya bagiku

aku keliling dunia
Kaulah segalanya bagikuu

senyum di Teluk Penyu
dan yang pasti cilacap itu "PENUH SENYUMAN"

I'm Full Of Hope Right Now!!!

3 days before i go to Cilacap..

i begin to accept all this reality
now.. i just can say:
THANKS GOD I CAN GATHER WITH MY FAMILY AGAIN...

i just realize that..
that a lot of people who love me so much are waiting for me over there...!
i will do my best there!
i wanna make my parents happy..
wkwkwkwk.. (I'm a good person, aren't i?)

so, i'm waiting for my brother pick me up.
i'll go at Monday, July 6th 2009

see you malang!!!!
i love you, mom, dad...

See You...

i don't know
it's hard for me..
all this complicated mechanism here make me sure that i must GET OUT from here!!!

whatever i do, it's just like i never be good enough for my family.
they always think that i must be like what they want, without give me chance to show who am i actually...!!!
SUCK!!

i will go 'there'..
cilacap maybe
maybe i will get a better family there..
a better education there..
a better future there..
and of course some new friend, who never be better than i had here!!!

but, every time i told this,
there's always the TEARS...
and i hate when i know they wept..

now i know that i never loose all my best friend.
all of them is the best in my heart.

weci
miss. bound
miss. Strezz
romo
mr. yu
mr. iis
mr. agus
mom far
jongos
nigrum
adek2 kelas 1 english club
sovy
luluk
uut
asaku!
arseka!
himpas'k!

all of them!!!

i love you..
and i hope i can stay here...
for you all...

i wish i'd stayed here..

"LEARN..."

learn...
to accept the unfairness..
to understand my friend..
to be unselfish..
to be happy together..
to appreciate what i've gotten now..

my friend said:

If you stand for a reason, be prepared to stand alone like a tree. And if you fall down on the ground, fall as a seed that grows back to fight again
ZAHID ANJUM BALOCH

Enjoy Ajah!!!

i've passed my final examination!!!!
hua hua hua... merdeka!!!!
some subject.. mmm... i hope the best!! heheh..:-)

so, tadi ujian terakhir buat kenaikan kelas ini...
habis ini udah mau kelas XI heheh..
n hari ini aku ujian langsung 6 mata pelajaran! busyett!! gilaaa!!!

habis tu, aku, miss bound, ama miss. strezz maen2.
1 beli cilok di depan skul. (ngirit booo)
2 beli jajan di cak hadi
3. beli dawet di depan kawedanan
4. makan bareng di trotoar depan kawedanan, ngemper di bawah pohon, ngeliatin mobil2 lewat, orang pacaran, ampe orang2 yang memandang kami "aneh". hehe.. emang agak aneh sih...

i enjoy banget my life here!!
today!!

n percaya gak nih uangku habis tinggal 1000 perak n tak buat k warnet posting blog ini...

klo kehabisan duit gimana yach...

ah let it flow!!
gila2an ajah.
yang penting life is never flat!! haha...

My Life Become GJ

GAK JELASSS!!!

that's what i feel now in my life.

my exam was so mess..

my love story was very complicated..
and i got someone new..
and i'm very confused..
and i miss my ex-boyfriend..

my family don't care anymore about me..

i begin feel that i loose my best friend one by one..

and i take a part of another persons problem which is actually i should not take a part on it.

and i'm walk alone now..

there's a big hole on my heart now!

Please don't BLAME me anymore!

please don't! don't blame me..
and don't make me frustration,
all the nightmare you had given to me is ENOUGH!

i know about that, i won't forget it all my life!
the effect is too hurt me so deep that i cannot heal it at all..
i just need you to let me smile, please..

and deep inside my heart, i don't wanna be blamed,
because i don't mean to do that,
but why all the people think that all this sucking fact is my fault?
why?

please don't!

and don't take me out from here!

Why did you come to me?

i don't need you!
this all is enough for me,
i had my friends, i had my family, and i had my cats.
so i didn't need you anymore!! right!!

now i just wanna SMILE.
no more problem because of love!

like i often said before, i just wanna appreciate what i've gotten now, HERE!
because i don't wanna loose anything anymore!

you know? i still can alive without you.
you made me too confuse because of your action!
and i realize now that i don't need you to be happy.
the most hurt fact is: YOU DON'T GIVE ME ANYTHING!!
just think about that!

so, if i said before that i hate the place where i belong,
it was totally wrong!
i loved to be here while i still can be here...

Stuck in here..

this all is for MYSELF, who cannot deny all the situation,

who really stupid by still keep in silent under all the fucking complicated mechanism,

who cannot do anything else..

Here we are..

Motions for victoria english debate sparing partner:

ENTERTAINMENT
THBT dubbing TV programs are not educative

HEALTH
THBT patenting of medical finding is justified

FACEBOOK
THW lower age as the aligible member

JUSTICE
THW change the chief of KPK as soon as possible
THBT capital punishment is justified

see you there, all the debaters!
on June, after the examination!
miss tou compete in debate again!
our world..

Cannot take my mind of you..

i just opened that old letter..
i found you..
and asking myself why it's too short for us?

yeach.. that's our fault..

and i wanna be like them..

I got a valuable lesson..

by still doing something which i don't wanna do,
by still stand up under the rules which i hate so much,
by still patient,
by still keep in silent,
by still try to be my best!
and by still thinking hard..

i know that behind all those fucking reality, i've gotten something valuable..
there was something BEST for me over there..

Dengan tetap mematuhi hal yang tidak ditakdirkan untuk kulakukan,
aku kini mengerti kekuatanku adalah kelemahanku.
kesuksesanku akibat kegagalanku.
dan gayaku berkaitan langsung dengan keterbatasanku..

It was a long time..

i miss hiking..
oh God, it's my satisfation when i was in the top of the mount, see the scenery over there, the lamp in the nigt, the moon, the star, the cold, and always the LAUGH..

i really miss it..
want it..
hope it..

semeru, a searching of the life..
God, let me go there please..
that's my place.

as a mountainer, i'm proud to die in the mount..
where i can find myself there..

it was really a long time..

What is the mean of love?

sebenarnya cinta itu apa?
apa perasaan untuk ingin selalu bersama?

apa perasaan untuk ingin memiliki seseorang seutuhnya?

apa hanya sekadar untuk mengisi jiwa yang sepi?

tapi yang kumengerti,

CINTA adalah sesuatu yang cukup luar biasa dalam menentukan cakrawala hidup manusia..

I like to be unperfect

By: Miss Gagged on the most bored day!

"Came back.."

i came back to my old home..
my past life..
i love it so much..

i could become MYSELF there.
my room, the place i hide myself..

i didn't slept in purpose,
and suddenly i found 'someone' waked me up!

I THOUGHT SHE WAS MY MOM THERE..
i felt like she was my mom...

but no, she wasn't..

actually, the happiest thing ever is when you came back to your past,
and found everything still same like when you left..

Don't go..!

dia pergi..
bukan buatku, bukan buat mereka..

dia pergi!!

dia berkata "YA", dan dia berkata "TIDAK"
dan aku berkata "JANGAN"
dan mereka tak tahu apa-apa,
dan akan ada banyak air mata...

dia tak tahu.
dan kau pun tak tahu.
dan dia jahat.
dan aku bodoh! tolol!

dia tak tahu kalau dia sudah padamkan semua cahaya itu..
dia bilang, "Akan kunyalakan lagi cahaya itu"
tapi dia pergi..

I hate all!!

all the fucking fictious!
all!
hate banget!!
dah gak comment!!